February 2012
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things I should've said
this post does not mean I am going to. This, this is just in case I make some stupid mistake or just have that one moment of weakness that ends it all. In that case, I’m sorry. This is just for the friends who have played such a huge role in my life. Nobody see this and freak out. I know a few of you below are following this blog, and I’ll accept the fact you’re going to see it...
I just miss going out.
going out, getting drunk, being who I want to be, somebody completely different to me- not giving a shit anymore, laughing at anything, wearing what I want, acting how I want towards other people,
I’m sick of so much control in my life.
“Don’t rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be...”
– Stacey Charter (via theworldisfuked)
Allie please reply to me please tell me you havent...
although
I hate this chart I have to do for my psychologist,
every day I have to say what level my mood is on and how many hours of sleep I’m getting, and we have to wait until they can see a pattern.
mem. :c
tonight, I was going to go out and get smashed...
I knew it might result in suicide, because sometimes I feel a thousand times worse when I’m drunk, and I haven’t gotten drunk since I was so seriously suicidal,
but tonight I decided that was a bad idea and said no. yes. I am proud.